other bloggers inspiration

so first, off yup the blogs private again. i wanted it to be accessible for family and them not having to ask to see the little cutie for the ones not on facebook, but i don't want people in France checking her out. so sorry for the headache.

it's crazy to think in a few months time I'll be turning 27, and Justin turning 31 wow time has flown. it really doesn't seem like we've been married for 7years let alone known each other almost 9 years. i had to count on my fingers to figure out how old i was, that's bad. 
i was board so i was checking out old ward members blog's when i came across one that got me thinking. it was titled 30 hard things before 30. she says she's got this list she's that she's never shared before, because some thing's she doesn't want to explain why they make the list. #1 was running a half marathon. so I'm thinking that was on my not so set in stone list of things to do. so it would count if i wrote down a list right ?

anyways her list goes on and some things look super fun and others I'm thinking how would you do that with a family (then catching myself and saying, well that would make for some awesome family memories) but there's one thing that i have noticed that's popping up on a lot of peoples lists.... (tattoos) you know I'm like it's your body and your deal, but when they go off on Facebook after words because they are feeling judged. you did it to your self. i find it strange that it might just be me a lot of lds are just being lose with things (at least i was taught) to be things we choose not to do because we love and respect our body's. now before you think that I'm doing some huge judging here, I'm the one that looks forward to watching epic ink and i did watch another tattooing show on Netflix. and at one time in my life i though out would be cool to get one to. between Justin and knowing what a big disappointment my parents would think i was, yea didn't happen. also one of our really good friends got a tat after he won his battle with cancer. but my grandma on one side and grandpa on the other had cancer and neither needed a tattoo to show that they beat it.

I'm just confused as to how people think it's okay to just do things at there own convenience , when those things were pounded in to most of us at such a young age. i saw a conversation a Fb friend had commented on.... the poster was lived because she got a tattoo and kids at school were telling her kids that there mom couldn't go to the temple anymore. here i am thinking well we have been taught to keep our body's clean and not get tattoos ect... and yeah there are people who didn't grow up in the church that convert after they already got stuff done. but if you know you shouldn't why do it..? it's also like a few of our friends that drink on occasion.. i just wonder if my life is as crazy as it is and i don't drink... i really feel bad that they feel like they need to.  I still love all these people and they are my friends i just get confused.

i am going to make a cool list and yeah I'm going to count a few things we've done already but i want it to be up lifting things that i won't be ashamed or have to feel like i need to justify to others. and i know i have a lot to work on but that is why we are here... we will learn, hopefully sooner then later.

I'm so thankful to be a part of the church of Jesus Christ of later day saints. I'm so thankful i found a worthy spouse to take me to the temple, and want to be sealed to me for time and all eternity. someone who is worthy to hold the priesthood and use it. we are put in tough spots to make us stronger, and we need to learn the right way to show our savor the love we have for the things he's given us.

sorry for the rant~

also in other news (to sweet i couldn't wait to share... but still to nervous to share on fb)

after along 9 years at kfc Justin told me i won't be going back. he was sweetly telling Bristol a few days later that she better appreciate him wanting her to have her mommy around. i said you just did that so you wouldn't get overwhelmed watching her well i worked. he got mad. lol as it is we don't qualify for chip or anything (still working on the spend down ) so I'm very apprehensive about not working but he says he wants me home. we will see how it goes: )