Over Load

So earlier this week when i thought about writing a new post i didn't think it would be writing about this. in the last three days I've had four friend's on facebook have baby's, one being the brother in law that lives three house's down from us. three of them being boy's and one a girl, at anytime five year's before now i would be super mad because i want a little boys so so bad. so I'm not writing this because I'm mad or anything like that. i just want one now :( can't a stork just drop one off already. i think it has to do with the fact that we have been married six years and the last time i took "the pill" was two years ago.  when we were first married i was scared to hold baby's because there so little and i wouldn't want to hurt them, now it's more because i don't want to hurt. i feel like I'm being selfish by being a shut in and not doing what i would if i had the money and was a  little more outgoing, i would have dropped off flowers and a treat's to all these lady's that are or are becoming new mom's.

i also have been feeling like with all of our friends with new baby's or about to have baby's that I'm letting Justin down. we have been kinda looking around at baby things here and there, we have a boy name picked out and when we see cute boy stuff we always say "oh, Michael would love that" 

well hopefully we can start a family with in a year or so or before i turn 30 HA 

anyways so my family gives me a hard time about when i shot my dad's truck during my elk hunt 

well here's another one for you 

so the other day we went out cay pidgin shooting and we just have a hand thrower sooo

Justin is like the best at throwing them for sure so i tried and the clays wouldn't come out 

so finally one came out and Justin was ready to shoot and BAM 

it hit his had on the gun 

it was kinda funny i mean i was laughing when i was saying 

"I'm so so so so sorry, I'm so so so so so so sorry"  

 ha happy Friday  !!!!