be aware this is a little rant

Even though it's December and its 09 days till Christmas it sure doesn't feel like it. we have a tree, lights on the house, gifts and treats out to neighbors and family. i was hoping the Christmas program at church would have helped, but there were songs that I've never heard of and i lost interest half way though but the choir sounded awesome! :)

also I'm so ready for next weekend to be over just so fantasy football will be over. depending on how next week goes i will finish 3rd or 4th, which for my first time playing i think i did pretty awesome. considering we're pretty sure the administrator is cheating after how what he said this week. "yeah your just lucky no one is paying attention or you would never have made it this far" I may be a girl and this may be football and my first time playing but come on I'm not "JUST LUCKY". 

my weight loss has kinda taken a back seat this month, ether i don't have everything i need or I'm cheating with cookies. mmmmm cookies! I will say this i have been staying under the 20s which is awesome for not trying hard but to loose the five lbs i gave my self a goal to at this moment i need to drop 7 to 8. I'm hoping Justin can help me by kicking me out of bed in the morning to start running again, i just have a hard time getting up, once I'm up I'm good. :p 

Friday Justin and I were walking through DI just to see what cool things we could find. we could have gotten new doors for the kitchen cabinets but they were to small. :(  a lady from my parents ward stopped us and asked if we were the ones that have had the baby,  my dad who is in the bishop brick missed to go to the blessing two weeks ago. when I said nope that was Kasey she looked away said oh and then gave me a weird look like what's wrong with you. i just don't get it between the comments from strangers and extended family you would think i was completely stupid for not having at least one kid already. also that i have some huge issues because of not having one and should go see a shrink because of it. grrr well i know that when you say something when your in high school and you haven't even met your significant other you can't plan things.  i did say i didn't want a baby till i was 26 so i am on my own track and Justin is being very supportive. we wouldn't have these past five years any other way, we have come so far and we don't think that if we would have added a baby before now we wouldn't be were we are now. i do admit we have been pretty crazy the last month chancing people with one year old's at church in other wards and at wal-mart. the couple that lived in the basement next to ours right before we got our house had a baby about a year ago. we run in to them every now and then and this weekend we kinda "chased" them around to get a peak at there little one, she's white and he's black (not trying to be race's) and there little one has the tan skin but with strait hair he is so so cute. we want a little boy first and as soon as I'm done with my race in October, as long as it's OK with Justin to wait till then, we will start talking about it next Christmas and nothing is wrong with "me"or "us" OK so you know who you are please back off with your words and looks  :) thanks